平淡生活

Last night I went back to Britain----working in the shop with Jill, eating with Miao, joking with Ning, saying good bye to some friends, going to Spanish night with the class, shopping with Juno in Morrison… Suddenly, I was awaked up by my alarm clock and then aware of the fact that it was a dream. It seems as if everything had happened yesterday because they are so close to me. However, they have gone….

I don’t know why I miss them with the feeling of sadness. Maybe it is because they can only appear in my dream; I can’t touch them, approach them in a real sense anymore. I was consumed with missing. Actually the year itself is a dream----a dream too beautiful to remain, too fantastic to realize. I have let myself go in the dream for some time, but it seems impossible to stay there for too long. Dream is dream. It has to be awakened.

Sometimes it is weird to find that people I met in the dream are still dwelling in the dream when I am out and even talking with me cross over half of the earth. Perhaps they are brave enough to turn the dream into reality or some of them are merely too timid to face the reality. Who knows? I don’t mind. No one can provide the accurate and exact explanation to others’ decision and choice. Sometimes I suspect that whether my decision was the right one or not, only coming to the conclusion that the best thing to do is to hold on and achieve my full potential in what I am doing now. Is it because I have no choice or I wish to do that? It’s not an easy question to answer, though many people think that it is not courageous to ask such a question. I have to admit that I am a sort of timid before I try. But the only thing for sure now is that it has been my choice. I am supposed to cherish what I possess.

What I was doing last year has become a dream. But I can enjoy it anyway. Meeting is not better than missing. Let me lost in my feeling for one second, not too strong, not too weak. The dream made lots of sense because I grew up a lot in it. I was not just dreaming, rather, I was going ahead as well. I’m now appreciating what I’m doing----obtaining the sense of achievement from the eyes pursuing knowledge, enjoying the infinite care from my parents, experiencing the passion with a peaceful mind. All is gorgeous when love is aroundJ. Treasure and experience them with smiling and tears.

Today I returned to the reality with tears in the morning, and then I went to the university to give the last class in this semester to my students. We talked, say farewell and we nearly cried. I know that people come and go……but I still can’t help crying, just want to cry, just need to find to a place to pour my feeling. I am going to have a dream tonight…Let me smile in the dream this timeJ

 Waiting for the grass turning green…a flower boosting ….and a clear blue sky after the rain

A voice within ourselves persuades us to choose a safe and stable lifestyle----a job with a stable payment and a partner with simple and controllable personality. A job lack of creativeness and flexibility may be easier for us to manage as we don’t need to think too much or change our way of thinking to adjust to it. We could accomplish every task with ease; our life seems to be a plain sailing without any challenge. However, this is just the surface of things. Without the capacity of accepting new things and taking on challenges the world throw at us, we actually quit our growth and improvement. What’s the point of it? Confused by the world who posed so many obstacles in front of me, I need to open my mind and views to figure out what belongs to me.

Nothing can be achieved without passion. With passion, life is beautiful, marvelous but dangerous; without it, life is full of boredom. It is always reasonable to persuade ourselves to get far from being hurt, but it is not necessarily right to prevent ourselves from experiencing adventures since only those who can take risks to achieve their goal could enjoy the greatest triumph. Experiences enrich our life. But experience is not only what happens to a person; it is what a person does with what happens to him/her. We can learn to make our own judgments through experiencing our life and thinking independently. Definitely, following our words and persuasion of getting far away from dangerous and challenging situation ensures the security, but we may get lost in this sense of security since it is at the cost of making our own judgment through experiencing it and thinking independently. I’d rather keep my independent thinking at the risk of being hurt and lost.

Do take risk! How powerful the voice is! Regardless of pains and tears, let’s keep going through the swamp and show the sun how brave we are! The Doctor who gave encouraging speech to us in the graduation ceremony punched my heart at that time. Let me punch it again now!  This is at least the first step of reaching a new level…Life is not perfect. But taking risk would help us to better it somehow...

人生有好多的第一次,第一次走路,第一次上学,第一次挣钱,第一次恋爱.....今天是我第一次站上讲台带课,好紧张.上去做了一个自我介绍,学生们还真给我面子,全都鼓起掌来...哈哈,一下子自信心膨胀起来,英语越说越顺.

 

听着学生们老师长老师短,我还真是不太习惯,不过心里却有一份莫名的感动,看着那一双双真诚的眼睛,那份求知的热情,体会到了一种责任.也回想到起了我以前的样子,我在班里还找到了我的原形,呵呵~~(一个不爱说话的小姑娘,热情却腼腆,开朗却不善言谈,柔弱却坚强...)哈哈,这难道就是我对自己的评价,有点不要脸勒.

 

渐渐地,开始体会到一切都是那么不容易,不过却告诉自己, Great things always go to those who keep going:).God is trying my patience and perseverance. 我会挺下去,难受了就想想这些真诚的眼神,想想自己曾经做出的努力,想想关心我的人.There can be miracles when you believe, though hope is frail, it's hard to kill.Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe Somehow you will
You will when you believe.

 

A ZA A ZA FIGHTING!

马上要离开JUST BEAUTY 了, 还真有些舍不得.虽然忙的时候老板也挺"剥削的" 但是她们还是挺善良的,教了我不少的英语呢. 就要和店里熟悉的一切说BYE BYE,和两个老板说BYE BYE,这一别恐怕真的是永远~~~

 

今天专门带了相机去和她们照相,发现SUE 还挺上照的,哈哈.这个老婆子可是很厉害的哦,自己开了很多家店,一手把店经营起来,力气比我还大,穿着高跟鞋就上梯子...

 

JILL也不简单,常常能抓到小偷,眼疾手快...

 

明年JUST BEAUTY这一带的房子就拆了,一切都消失了,不过我会记得它的:)